getting things going

Today I didn't feel better, but I am figuring out how to handle the nauseus feeling without wanting to cry all the time. Acceptance is key. I simply need to eat crackers and drink water all morning and afternoon- once evening hits then a meal is much more likely though it really shouldn't have much flavor to it. I have a major sweet tooth, but only in moderation. When it comes to candy I have always been a chocolate person more than a chewy fruity person, but fruity is all that sounds good. I bough watermelon sour patch gummies and gummi peach-o's and of course more twizzlers. Gotta keep myself stocked up :)

So, no more complaining because I suppose the sleepy, pukey, swollen, sensitive, cry baby Sara is here to stay for several more weeks. I will just alert the press when it stops!

I am excited because I am going to see my primary care physician Thursday afternoon- I will be able to get my "proof of pregnancy" to give to medicaid. I will also be able to ask her about my medication options; just to get as many medical opinions as I can before throwing in the towel and assuming that I can't take any medication, because right now I can't sleep more than a blink. It is pretty frustrating to be honest- so if there is something I can do even if it is headstands for a few minutes a day then I am all for it.

I have decided that while I will keep my list of baby names because I LOVE BABY NAMES, I am no longer discussing them with anyone because unless you helped create the baby or have some major plans on financing the baby ( so far Sasa says he will pay $20 and 2 months of diapers to have the baby named after him ) then you have zero zero nada say in what I name my little baby! :P How 'bout that?

I bought a bunch of books on Amazon yesterday and they were all shipped today and I should get them Friday or Saturday!!!! I am so excited- i am most excited about "Your Non-Toxic Pregnancy" I figure if I have already stopped meds, caffinee, cigarettes, then why not go all out and try a total non toxic and organic pregnancy... yea and I just might request soft music and relaxation candles when I give birth. But really... there are tons of perks to organic living for babies so why not start now so when I have a baby to feed I will have this all figured out!

I suppose I could just focus on school instead of reading books on how to be a crazy tree hugging fool but it just is more interesting right now! I must sleep .... ughhh I am never going to get a thing done.... but my embryo and I are working on growing a brain so I suppose that is enough work for the week :)