I still have three months till this baby will be out of the womb and I am so worried about decisions I have to make and if they are right or wrong and trying to balance out what is best with what I don't have a right to decide. He isn't even born yet and years away from being able to make a valid argument in which my rebuttal can't be because I said so... yet I am worried he might be angry with me. Yesterday I just cried a million times even thinking of all the what if situations, the things I can't control, or save him from, and the huge fear that someday he might look back and not see that everything I have done and thought has been with him in mind and he isn't even born yet...
*sigh* I really need to get used to the idea that some things I will just have to wait and see for and that some things I just have to do what I think is best and hope it works out. Why isn't there and instruction manual for all things complicated????
P.S. Baby is getting so big and those little movements that just felt like tickles across the belly are so rare because now most movement is big and feels like he is bouncing off the walls or doing somersaults... 2 weeks till my 3-D Sonogram and I can see his beautiful face!! :)
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