Ready when you are :)

I am in a new state of mind. What state of mind is that? The one that causes me to believe that I will not ever have this baby... but I am not angry, I am not sad, I am trying to save myself. Everyone sounds so hopeful-even the Doctor- well now I think everyone is lying and just trying to say what I want to hear!!! Haha. Yesterday I went to the Doctor and I am just super healthy pregnant woman- which is really great, but makes it annoying to keep going to the doctor when we are doing great and NOTHING IS CHANGING.

She checked my cervix, which never stops hurting no matter how many times they do it, and I am still only dilated 1 centimeter. Granted I knew that the chances of progression was pretty slim, but I had that really big hope that she would check and suddenly splish splash my water would break and we could go have a baby.. haha. I dream big! :) This was not the case and so today I am going to go run around town and get stuff done and WALK till finally Sawyer realizes how much fun I am having out here and decides to join me!

I have decided to kinda give up and just have my baby at Menorah Medical Center (on 119th and Nall). It is where I have to go to be induced on the date that I want, December 22 at 6:30 am! And it just makes more sense to not register at two hospitals and narrow it down to one so that no one is confused.

Well off to Christmas Shop ... YAY!! :)

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Here is one picture of OUR room- it is cozy and surprisingly roomy!!