38 weeks!

I am now at 38 weeks, which means I am 2 weeks from my due date and 2 weeks and 2 days from my induction date. Which means that anywhere between tomorrow and 16 days from now I could have my baby! yay!!!

Even with the labor and delivery so close I really am not that worried about it (yet), but I am worried about knowing or I guess not knowing. Like, oh that felt like it was a stronger contraction than I am used to. Was that a real contraction? Should I check the time? Did I have one like that a few minutes ago and not notice? ... I mean I don't know what i am in for and sometimes things just hurt! I just figure I won't worry about the labor because I know I am not going to be able to handle it so why worry how bad it will be, my threshold for pain is low so it is going to hurt... till I get the epidural at least! :P

While I am not stressing about the delivery I am still a total wreck. I thought it would be more nervous excited kinda of issues in the end but that is not it at all. I am just physically miserable and my ability to function has nearly diminished. Which makes me stay at home and then I start to get sick of being at home, because I have nothing to do. I am totally way too emotional- I will cry at the slightest change in emotion.... I dunno I can't even explain it, but it is everything that makes me a big mess not just being nervous about the baby- I am excited for him!! It is kinda like the last week of school before summer OR the last week of school before summer AND before graduation when you are just TRAPPED in school and you aren't actually accomplishing anything but you are just there physically and mentally going crazy because you are still stuck in school and so close to being done..... ya know??

My manager asked me to train someone this week/next week and I figured it would be something to at least get me out of the house and distract me. Well it turns out my tolerance for people has gone down with my tolerance for daily tasks... haha it isn't good, but I will make it through and make at least one last paycheck worth while... I could use that $100+ in a bad way!

Yawwwnn, time to soak my feet in freezing cold water and wrap my wrists because I believe I have pulled something in BOTH of them and tuck myself into a bed full of pillows in hopes to sleep for at least 2 hours in a row without having to get up and pee or grab a fresh ice pack for whatever body part hurts the most. Pregnancy is super fun!!!! :)